Lovely Weekend

Today is going to be the start of a wonderful weekend.
Not only is it the last day of the work week (where they supply donuts/bagels/fruit for the employees) but I'm actually going to a party tonight (which I never do). Tara is moving to LA and she's having a goodbye party tonight. Dj hasn't decided whether he's coming or not, he wants to get most of his homework done before Conference this weekend. I hope he does because I love having him around but I know that he feels like the majority of the people who will be there are mostly 'my friends'.
And then I'm really truly excited about General Conference this weekend (I think I need to make a Conference weekend food tradition. The Abbotts have Conference Cake. Some other friends did Finger Foods all weekend long. Something like Conference Cinnamon Rolls or Conference Enchiladas. Something we do every weekend when Conference comes. I'll let you know what we decide). I went to the General Relief Society Broadcast last weekend and I loved it! I heard a lot of things that I feel were meant just for me. I think that President Uchtdorf was talking directly to me and I felt really special and loved that night, not only because of the spirit I felt during his talk but because of some really nice things people said to me that night. When we went to the temple a few weeks ago I felt a little bit of that 'sting of the spirit'. To me that means that feeling you get when the spirit's trying to tell you "You've been slacking Kylie, you need to do better or you're really going to miss out on some things I have planned for you". So I've been trying. Especially since Heavenly Father decided to bless us so richly in my job hunt. And in life in general....
We decided that we should make going to Institute a priority so we get an extra boost during the week. I've also stared reading the Ensign or that new Relief Society book during my lunch break. We haven't been making scriptures a priority either so we've been working on that. I also went visiting teaching last week, I'm going to try really hard to be faithful in that calling because I've always felt so negative about it and I really am just tired of feeling negative.
Luckily the Lord is patient and full of love because I know that Kylie Waldron gives him grief quite often. I think I've been feeling better because of our efforts too. Not only do I feel more clear of mind and less stressed, which I think has a little to do with quitting my old job, but I almost have more energy some days where I may have not felt that way before. It's definitely a long process and I know that it'll be a continuous struggle because I'm a procrastinator and a lot of days simply just lazy. I'm looking forward to really trying hard to focus on Conference this weekend and really try to hear and learn the things that are meant for me and my little family.

To Conference.

What to do....

I have baby fever.

Yeah you heard me. All who read this, just keep it on the DL please, I don't want people thinking I'm already prego and painting the nursery (because you know that's what Mormon women gossip about).

Anyways, dj and I have been doing a whole lot of talking lately about the big B word. We've been playing around with different scenarios and trying to figure out the what/when/how/$$$ parts of that decision. We know that everything will work out no matter when or how we decide to do it, that's the great thing about having a testimony of the gospel, we have the faith to know that Heavenly Father will support our decisions and bless us with the strength to get through. Whether that means living in a studio, eating rice and top ramen, or working ridiculous hours to get by. (The thought of having a baby in this studio is actually quite hilarious to me, since I've heard multiple stories from people at church who said they had two or three kids in a studio until they moved to a larger house.) All I know is that I would love more than anything to be able to call a little baby my own and see dj as a father.

And if there wasn't enough to think about dj brought home a flier from Brother Abbott at the Institute that talks about this new program they're doing through BYU-I and the institutes. It's a year of online learning, there are three quarters/semesters/trimesters/whatever that you go through each with 2 classes and you meet once a week at an Institute (only bad thing about this area is that it's in Santa Maria). After you complete that year of stuff you can have the option of transferring over the BYU and doing online classes to get an AA or Bachelor degree. We talked about it and it sounds like a very plausible thing to do for me and so we're really going to think about it and talk to Brother Abbott about it as he learns more information. It would be a big step for me, thinking about actually getting a degree through BYU-I, I've honestly resolved myself to never being able to finish school, even just the AA I was working for, because it was more important to get dj through school and by then I always thought school for me would be unrealistic.

So those are the two things on my mind right now. They feel very random but I also know they are both life changing decisions.

Another day

First 3 days of work went well. Nothing amazing to report. I'll give you guys a basic run-down on what exactly I'll be doing. So the place is called Pacific Coast Pharmacy/Integrative Health Concepts. The place isn't like a CVS where you go and can talk to a pharmacist and pick up your stuff. There are no patients that come into our office or anything like that. What we do as a whole is we get contacted by insurance companies and doctor's offices and we're told that they have patients who would like to use our services and we call the patients and set them up with accounts. We then fill orders and send the patients the supplies they need through the mail, diabetic testing supplies, urology and ostomey supplies, as well as wound care (bandages and stuff), and respiratory stuff like meds and machines and all that for people who have asthma or breathing problems. What I will be doing (my official title is Supply Coordinator) is filling orders for people, calling them if I need to, taking calls from those who run out of supplies. I'll make sure we have a current insurance authorization, that the patient is up to speed on their bill, and making sure that we have current prescriptions on each patient.
In a nut shell that's what I'll be doing. It's going well, the people are really nice, I can actually eat whatever I want while I'm at work and they have bagels, donuts, and fruit on Fridays as well as giant cakes each month for people's birthdays. Oh yeah and my manager Steve, does this thing called Fist Bump Friday. It's pretty self explanatory. It'll be fun, I wish I could take a pic of my very own cubical and show it to you guys but no phones or cameras allowed on the premises for HIPAA (patient privacy) reasons.

Yesterday (Saturday) we had a ward temple day, it was the first time Dj and I had had the chance to go to the temple in about six months so it was pretty exciting. We went with our good friends the Applins. It was great, we even saw my Aunt and Uncle from Bakersfield while we were there. Well, Dj got to see Colon while Shanyn and I were changing and then we got to go over and see Susan, who had volunteered to be a babysitter. It was great to see her, she's like my surrogate Mom and I love her so much. Everything went off without a hitch, we were even going to stop at a sit down restaurant on the way home and just enjoy ourselves. But alas, it was not to be. Not even a block from the temple we found out that we had a screw in the front passenger tire. Because we had 200ish miles home we didn't want to chance driving all the way back on it. So long story short, with the help of AAA, we got Brad's spare (which was luckily a full size spare) and slowly made our way back to SLO. Yeah, we didn't get home until almost 10. It was a day full of every sort of emotion and I'm grateful that Heavenly Father kept us safe and let us experience the beauty of the temple before throwing that little trial of patience at us. I LOVE THE TEMPLE!

Anyways.
And then there was today. So let me give some background about the SLO I ward. We've been there about a year and a half and there are people who still have no idea who I am. I've given a talk, I've gone to activities, I try and say hi or smile at people but they still for some reason don't always know who I am. My only real friend to sit with me in Relief Society is Shanyn, all the other young newly married people have callings in Young Women's or Primary. And today I found out that they sucked her in to YW. Yeah.

Yeah....
Let's just say that I sort of fought back tears for the rest of the day.
The week before last the Applins had been out of town and so when I had gone to RS I felt so awkwardly alone and so many people mistook me for Shanyn that I felt a lot of anxiety so I hid in the hallways by myself until church was over. So today when Shanyn left for YW I started to feel that anxiety. I tried to smile at people and was just hoping and praying that someone would come and sit next to me and help ease my anxiety. But again, alas....
I got up after the lesson started and hid in the bathroom and then the library and just read one of the manuals they had given out early. When I got home from church I cried. Pretty pathetic but I've been trying harder to smile and say hello to people, even sitting where other women usually sit in the hopes that they'll sit next to me and that we can talk a little. My efforts haven't been working obviously. It's hard because I've been in wards that are so welcoming and someone will always sit next to you and talk to you and now in this ward I don't feel that. It sure makes it hard to go to church some days but I know it's the right thing to do. I'm happy that Shanyn has this chance to grow and teach those girls and take on this new challenge the Lord has given her but I sure am sad that he took one of my best friends away from me.

That's something I need to learn a whole lot of: that the gospel requires service and that I can't stand in the way just because I feel lonely or insecure.

Whirlwind

I got a job! Yep, after worrying and crying and feeling sick over the thought of not having a job Heavenly Father has blessed Dj and I and given me a job. I had an interview on Wednesday last week and they told me that I would hear back either Mon/Tues. I got a call around 330 on Thursday afternoon with a job offer to start next Wednesday 9/14. So I'm not a screamer, I don't get excited and spaz out like a lot of other girls I've seen. But let me tell you, I was running back and forth from the bathroom to the kitchen squealing and dancing in a way I've never done before (not even when I got engaged btw).

I don't know why Heavenly Father has decided to rescue us from this trial so quickly, I don't know why things have worked out the way that they have but I'm unimaginably grateful. I have felt that cold bone chilling fear that many men have when they come to grips that they might not be able to provide for their family. Sure we have savings but to have that mental flash into the future and seeing us struggling because I haven't been able to find work was terrifying to me. I know that I am more to Dj than just a paycheck but I take the role of being a the primary source of income at the moment very seriously and as much as I'd love to not have to work 40 hours a week I know that that is the weight I need to carry at the moment. We have been blessed beyond comprehension these past few days, I'm only going to be out of work 2 whole days. I'll be working 8-5 M-F, I'll have the chance to get ins benefits, 401K, paid time off, holiday pay (after 90 days of course), at a place that is a similar to the job I had that I can succeed but different enough so that I can learn some valuable new things. I'll be working at Pacific Coast Pharmacy, I'll be dealing with customers on the phone and doctor's offices to make sure prescriptions are filled correctly and that the patients have everything they need.


So there you have that. Now I promised pictures and even though I put them on facebook already I wanted to add them to my blog!
This weekend we got together with the Applins and the Turners to celebrate Dj's 25th birthday! We had a tri tip bbq with all the fixings and it was amazing! Thankfully the Applins have access to an awesome bbq. It was tons of fun and we were introduced the game Boxers and Briefs, it's like Apples to Apples only funner.

The group

 

Here is Dj blowing out the candles on his cupcakes. Doesn't he look excited?

So I asked Dj what kind of dessert he wanted for his bday, he said cupcakes. When I asked what kind he refused to tell me (and I asked like 20 times) So I told him fine! I'm choosing the cupcake then and you're going to like it! Obviously, I chose Oreo.

I've officially found Kylie Waldron's version of crack. It's these cupcakes. They were ridiculously easy too, the hardest part being crushing up the Oreos for the frosting, which was made with flour and granulated sugar instead of powdered. Delicious! I may never go back.

He looks sad but that's only because his main present hasn't come in the mail yet. I got him a book (which I gave to him early because it was the last one of a series he's been reading and he really wanted to start it) and then a dvd set of Shrek 1-3 (we have 4 already) and it's somewhere between NY and SLO right now.

 

 

I also tried my hand at some Brazilian dishes for a special dinner for him yesterday and let's just say it wasn't really a success. I'll try again another time. So tonight we'll take it easy and open our last bottle of Sparkling Cider left over from our wedding. We have a lot to be grateful and joyful about right now and I'm so thankful for all the prayers that have been sent our way.

 

Lots of love from Kylie

So I was inspired my someone else's blog to do this. And since I feel like all I've been is a downer lately I wanted to do something enjoyable and a little fun since I just got off work and had to bike home (I'll start the dishes as soon as I'm done I promise!).

So here it is ladies and gentlemen, Kylie's official "Before I Die" list.
They are in no particular order.

1. Go to Portugal.
2. Spend two weeks (at least) somewhere tropical; Hawaii, Caribbean, Fiji, whatever, I won't be picky.
3. Stand in a field of fireflies.
4. Dance in the rain with someone I love.
5. Kiss the man I love in the rain.
6. Have Dj take me to Brazil.
7. Own a baby grand piano.
8. Go to General Conference.
9. Ice Skate.
10. See killer whales in real life.
11. See a great white shark in real life.
12. Get sealed in the temple. ( it used to be get sealed in the St. George temple, but LA worked out great)
13. Live on a lake side. (Like step outside on our dock type thing)
14. Have/adopt/raise children.
15. Publish something. A book, photo, poem, haiku, again, not picky.
16. Learn Portuguese.
17. Go to Alaska.
18. Build a piece of furniture. Like a table, I would love to build my own kitchen table.


I feel like that's a lot of things. But at the same time I feel like just about every single one of them is possible. Except maybe #15, that's one of those little desires I've had for years and years and I've already resigned myself to the unlikeliness of it so I won't be too bummed if it doesn't happen. I also see that my want to travel to far away places seems slightly excessive but I think that's alright. I'll take one or two I just don't want to narrow my choices.

Silver Lining

When it rains it pours. I mean like buckets. Thrown down on top of me.
It's like the rain clouds are like: "Look over there Fred, it's the Waldrons." "Ha let's get 'em Johnny, knock 'em off their feet!"
....not funny Johnny and Fred. Not funny at all.

So I had just a little break down yesterday. Yeah both literally and figuratively. We're driving around town, running errands, and before we leave the last place we decide to check the radiator fluid because the car had made weird noise while leaving Target. We add more because it looks like it needs it and hop in the car to head home to do some cleaning. Half way home the car starts smoking! Yeah, like a smoker in a run down bar kind of smoking. We pull into a parking lot as the temp is climbing. We have to walk home, since I decided to leave my phone at home like a dummy because I like to intentionally forget it once in awhile, I'm in flip flops and it's hot and I'm freaking out because while watching the car smoke all I'm seeing is our money burning away like a cheap cigarette. And since I'm soon to be jobless and Poly starts and all I'm just raving like a lunatic as we walk down the street. And on top of all of that (not to give tmi) I'm having cramps! Yeah, cramps! Let's just say that I was on the fence about whether to just stop in the middle of the side walk and sob my poor pitiful eyes out or go and attack the car with a baseball bat. I had a really rough day yesterday at church and so I was still recovering from that before this happened so I was definitely at my wits end and Dj tried his best to pull me out of the dark.

The first silver lining is that we got on the phone with my cousin who replaced our radiator and we were able to kind of figure out what might be wrong over the phone. Before Dj hung up with Brandon his wife asked to talk to me and we talked a little, me giving her the run down about our current life situations and all, and then she tells me about some of the things that they've gone through and talked about her kids and made me laugh and let me forget for just a bit all the stuff that was going on. It was nice, Bre and I are pretty similar in some ways and we relate really well, I miss her a lot, I've been friends with her before she married my cousin like 9 years ago.

The second silver lining is that around 4 I got a call from my brother who has been in NY the past few months. He was like, Hey sis, I'm at the SLO train station. So Dj and I walked to meet him and brought him back to our apartment where we were able to visit and feed him a homecooked meal. He spent like 3 days on the train coming out here and his ride to Paso flaked on him and didn't come so he's asleep in the living room. It's weird having someone else here in our tiny little studio, we've never done that before, but I miss him and I know that having me around is comforting to him along with Dj, who he really likes, he's never had a brother before. Only real negative thing about it is that he's starting smoking and light drinking again so I'll have to get on his case about those things lol

Long day. Forever of a long day. Dj and I talked about how Heavenly Father is stretching us (me in particular) pretty far right now and that we need to try our hardest to look for the reason and learn from it so that we can get the blessings that we may not even know that we're in need of. Today is a new day, even though it's busy I'll do my best to make it positive about whatever comes my way.

Welcome September

Happy September all.

I'm hoping that this new month brings happiness and wonderful things to the Waldron family. August was going pretty good there for awhile and then it took an abrupt walk off the life's pier. I got a little wet, a little banged up, but I've been climbing my way back up.
So first off, I have a job interview, nothing amazing, considering out of the 5 resumes that I've sent out so far I got rejected by one, one hasn't responded, and two of them have been those lovely craigslist scams that you always hear about (luckily I didn't fall for them or anything), so only one has called me, did a phone interview and set up an actual interview for next week. (So next Wednesday if you aren't busy or anything, feel free to send some prayers and happy thoughts my way). I'm nervous, as I am with everything I do, but I know that I would do a really good job there, it's a pharmaceutical delivery company and I'd be dealing with both customer service issues and insurance claims. After I finish this entry I'll probably get on a try to apply for a job I found at caljobs.somethingorother that is in the financial aide department for Cal Poly. It would be basic administrative assistant stuff. Who knows.
Second thing I'm thinking about is that Dj has a birthday coming up! Yay for him living another year! He'll be 25 on the 12th of September (I'm more excited about this than he is, I think he's trying to be all adult and grown up and convince himself that bdays don't matter anymore)! So I've planned a tiny get together with 2 of the couples we hang out with (though we're minus one important couple who shall remain nameless *coughmosescough*). I've planned to make Oreo cupcakes. Which I'm ridiculously excited to make, I'm in love with Oreo cookies! And I know what you're all thinking, it's Dj's bday why aren't you making something that he really likes. Well my friends it's because he won't tell me what he wants, all he said was he'd like cupcakes instead of a cake. So sorry babe, if you aren't going to tell me I'm at least going to make something I know that I will like. I'll take pictures for sure, my blog is boring without pictures but I don't have any to post yet.
Third thing, school starts! With all the job issues going on with me right now I really wish that I would have had the foresight and just taken classes at Cuesta. Anyways, I'll have to live vicariously through my husband I guess.
Fourth thing, with our financial instability looming ahead we didn't know when we would get to the temple next. And they announced last week at church that the ward is having their own temple day towards the end of the month. So not only will we be able to go to the best place on earth, but we'll be able to split the tab with someone else. I'm truly hoping that I'll at least have a job lined up by then though and we'll be able to plan temple trips just the two of us to LA or over in the valley with the Moses ;) in Fresno.

I definitely could use a temple trip right now, we've prayed a lot but there's something different about praying for things in the temple that I am looking forward to experiencing later this month.