What to do....

I have baby fever.

Yeah you heard me. All who read this, just keep it on the DL please, I don't want people thinking I'm already prego and painting the nursery (because you know that's what Mormon women gossip about).

Anyways, dj and I have been doing a whole lot of talking lately about the big B word. We've been playing around with different scenarios and trying to figure out the what/when/how/$$$ parts of that decision. We know that everything will work out no matter when or how we decide to do it, that's the great thing about having a testimony of the gospel, we have the faith to know that Heavenly Father will support our decisions and bless us with the strength to get through. Whether that means living in a studio, eating rice and top ramen, or working ridiculous hours to get by. (The thought of having a baby in this studio is actually quite hilarious to me, since I've heard multiple stories from people at church who said they had two or three kids in a studio until they moved to a larger house.) All I know is that I would love more than anything to be able to call a little baby my own and see dj as a father.

And if there wasn't enough to think about dj brought home a flier from Brother Abbott at the Institute that talks about this new program they're doing through BYU-I and the institutes. It's a year of online learning, there are three quarters/semesters/trimesters/whatever that you go through each with 2 classes and you meet once a week at an Institute (only bad thing about this area is that it's in Santa Maria). After you complete that year of stuff you can have the option of transferring over the BYU and doing online classes to get an AA or Bachelor degree. We talked about it and it sounds like a very plausible thing to do for me and so we're really going to think about it and talk to Brother Abbott about it as he learns more information. It would be a big step for me, thinking about actually getting a degree through BYU-I, I've honestly resolved myself to never being able to finish school, even just the AA I was working for, because it was more important to get dj through school and by then I always thought school for me would be unrealistic.

So those are the two things on my mind right now. They feel very random but I also know they are both life changing decisions.