This last week I have had a lot of time to ponder life and my immortality. Yesterday was my friend Sharla's memorial service. I can honestly say that I went into it a little worried. She was only 30, she left behind 5 young children and a grieving husband. It had the potential to be difficult and heartbreaking.
And it was, it was both of those things, but it was gorgeous and light hearted as well. I laughed, cried, reminisced, and held Dj close. Through all of this experience, upon hearing of her death and getting through the days that followed I believe the reason I cried was for Michael, her children, and the idea of being without Dj.
I've decided that Mormon memorials are the greatest kind to go to. I've been to a Catholic funeral before as well as non denominational Christian one and they were the most depressing things..
I've also decided that I hope if something like this is to ever happen to my family that Dj and I have a child. Though imagining trying to get along in the world as a single parent doesn't sound ideal I feel that having a little piece of my best friend, my love, would help the grieving process.

I was able to talk to a coworker about death this week as I confided in her about Sharla's death. I told her that it was okay to be sad, heartbroken that she's gone, that it seems like such a long time before we're able to see her again. But they're the lucky ones. She's up there, spending time with all her friends and family who have ever passed away. She's not subject to physical pain. She's in God's presence. And she will be able to watch over her children in a way she never could before.

Life truly is made better by having faith and a testimony of Heavenly Father and the next life.
This is a quote that was shared yesterday, both Sharla Prior and Winnie the Pooh said it best:

"If there ever is a tomorrow we're not together...There is something that you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we are apart...I'll always be with you."

I love my husband, my best friend. I love my life with him. I love that I have eternity to share with him and that no matter what happens in our life, in the end, he's mine forever and we never have to be apart for longer than a few moments.